The Theory of Ian ©

I can’t help it…

I feel like my mind is on fire…
I finally realize the hurt he must feel,
When he hears me talk like that.
I’ve been hurting all night,
And it’s not even real.
Why, do I feel like my heart is gonna transpire?
Just the thought of him losing me,
Struck my heart,
And I can’t help but start crying..

The impossible pain he might suffer,
And the greatest ..
Leaving all the memories behind,
That smile I had.
Even the stuff in the middle, it wasn’t so bad.

It must suck to be in love,
And never get to kiss their lips again,
I must admit,
I don’t know how I’d live,
But, I’d lay with you in your final moments,

Struggling,
Searching for clues,
Maybe an answer,
And, bring you back to life.
And we can be happy again.

Don’t make a sound,
I know they’re watching our commotion..
And they’re just talking, talking talkin’….

By: Bella Muerte

What’s your favourite flavour
Your number one taste?
Something so yummy
You dare not let waste
What great sensation
Salt, bitter, sour or sweet
Excites your tastebuds like crazy
Has everything else beat

If there was only one
You could not live without
What flavour would you choose
Be sure now, no doubt

Sometimes it’s the simplest
Of happiness that we crave
No, come on now behave
What to you brings happiness?
No wonder ‘tis well sought
But happiness is contagious
And easily is caught
So acquaint yourself with fine spirit
And bind it with a knot
To keep it close forever
For ‘tis something you forgot

The child in you remembers well
And begs you bring them back
Those long and happy playful days
That now your life may lack

By: Bella Muerte

As I pondered the meaning of happiness
I sat and thought awhile
The outwards signs are clear enough
Sparkling eyes and a beaming smile

And inwardly how can one tell
Or guage this emotion intact
For it blends with many others
To me that is a fact

Joy, Pleasure and Ecstasy
As friends together band
Difficult to separate
For they go hand in hand

By : Bella Muerte

Parents forget to understand

Sitting at the dinner table, they ask you about your day.
You start complaining on and on how nothing ever goes your way.
Your friends are everything but true and you feel all alone.
You know it’s time to make a move but you fear the unknown.

You haven’t smiled for a while and everything seems wrong.
You haven’t felt quite like yourself in what feels like so long.
On and on you spill your tears in hopes of some advice,
But all they seem to have to say are words that won’t suffice.

“Oh please get over it, you’ll be fine, you’re such a drama queen,
Exaggerating every problem because you’re just a teen.”
You walk away and hear them laugh behind your troubled back
Not knowing that you really need help getting back on track.

They think your life’s as simple as deciding black or white,
Not knowing it’s the grays between that keep you up at night.
Your simple wish you hope to grant is to make them care,
To guide you through when in need and always have them there.

They think we have it easy in this new age world we’re in,
but yet they never take the time to step where we have been.
They always think they’re always right because they’re in command,
But when will parents realize that,
Our mind is,
So fresh and willing
Always bearing and accepting
Neither deep or shallow
Operating as it desires
Always so intrigued of our sourroundings
But not a thought of really understanding
Over assessing situations
Even when uncertain of the real meaning.




How quickly they lose the simpliest of having one…

By : Bella Muerte

 Miles that separate,
Friends that discriminate.
Circumstances that kept us apart
And,
All those times when we  broke our own hearts…
The feelings that I was scared to show,
The ones that you always made known.
The good times and the bad,
The happy and the sad
You never gave up
Even when I would
You never let me go
Even though I said you should.
You said you love me
&,
I believe its true.
Now I just need to say,
Baby I love you too.
As the days go by I began to find
This feeling inside is one I can no longer deny.
You amaze me in every single way
Everday,
You continuously take my breath away.
You know me better then I know myself
You know when I’m happy,
When I’m sad
You even know the little things that make me mad
You’ve won my heart, and proved yourself true.
Babe I don’t know how you did it,
But you made me fall head over heals for you.
When I first meet you
I supposed we’d just be friends
Who would of thought
That I would love you in the end?
We talked and talked
for months and months..
Got to know each other in a way that no one would.
I didn’t want to give you my heart
I used to be so scared that,
You would tear it apart,
but it gradually led to the perfect  crime
Now is the time,  
for us ,
6row old together as they say
But insinde , I just cannot wait for that special day.
Even after all this time,
I still get butterflies.
You are so cute in every way.. that smile …
Your eyes,
makes me want to kiss you every time. 
It all just feels so right to say,
Your love lights up my life and when I am down it lights up the stars in the night.
I promise to love you in every way
and to be by your side in every way.
You just make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world
to have you as a boyfriend
and my best friend!!
From now until forever ,
I will always love you.

By: Bella Muerte

(Source: thetheoryofian)

I don’t really have shit else,
So this helps when I’m depressed.
That’s why half the time I cut my wrists,
Just to bleed.
The pain is like a sudden relief to me.
Even if I could,
I still wouldn’t be great.
Huh?
I just wish it wasn’t so bad.
Like,
I don’t understand.
Why do you keep me here?
I might as well kill myself.
I’m a bitch and you don’t want me.
Can you relate?
Probaly not,
Mr I’m too good,
Mr. , I can’t seem to keep my hands off anyone else
I hope you can’t sleep and you dream about me.

By : bella muerte

You are all the things,
That I want us to be.
I’m sorry for pretending.
I’m sorry I’m so difficult.

By; Bella Muerte